60th.

Yes, yes, yes - it's the 60th blog of mine ! [don't try and count; because ihave one hidden blog lol.]
...
So now what ? Well; I'll do something similar to what I did in my 'Fantastic Four' blog---
ofcourse; Tashauna & I have drifted so
there isn't much I can say abouther.




Marcus.
Then again; he doesn't need to go first
this time--for things are different.




EJ.
This guy, is like, idk. UP THERE right now.
Although his endeavors are pretty blurry to me,
He knows most of mine. *It's impossible to do this
without sounding gay.* So I'll just stop right there.


Pap.
So like, I've always wanted a best friend. A really genuine
BEST friend. Marcus, EJ, and Andrew have already given me
that, but not in the way Pap does. It's incredible, actually...
I can't keep a thing from her. To keep this short,
I'll just say that she, in a sense, IS me. [ofcourse the
personalities are different, butthat's not the point. lol]


Sua.
It's going to be SO difficult saying everything I want to while
keeping this condensed. Anyways; I really came into this section
with intentions of blaming my and Sua's 'single' status mostly on her.
And while her rollercoaster signals do hinder MUCH progress, it's me.
I just, expect too much out of a potential girlfriend, I expect too much out
of Sua -- too much that she'll probably never be able to give me.
Autumn, I believe, was a test for me -- to see if I could dispel any
serious infatuation even with a relationship with Sua hanging around
the corner...and I failed miserably. Or, did I pass ? Maybe she was a
test to see if I could rid myself of my feelings of Commitment to Sua,
someone who isn't my girlfriend. Either way, that situation changed
my view on everthing. After it all, I am right back where I started --
she's taken, & Sua and I are still here. Those physical endeavors, a type of
flirting very foreign to Sua and me, blinded me from the life I have with Sua...
they truly did. And with that, I conclude that unless I expect less,
or can move by this lifestyle, or if Sua can do more, than it will
not happen anytime soon. *Ha !, so much for this being short. lol.


Marcus.
Our friendship is video games, football, and randomness in Economy.
That isn't a bad thing, by any means, it is just really weird. I'm used to him
being everything, or barely anything at all.


Janelle.
When we talk, it's like we've been best friends for quite sometime. Now while
the same feeling is not felt nor shown in school, I appreciate her being here.


Mone.
She basically cut me off; and always acts funny to me in school. So I guess
that's how it ends. I still love her, of course.


Sabrina.
Weird; we're cool. Like, we've always had ourUPS in our friendship, but
she actually seems to care about me this time around -- who knows, she
may just become really important.


Uhm. I was going to talk about Jasmine and others; but they haven't done
enough yet lol. I am anticipating this 'talk' Kayla and I are supposed to be having.
I'll ask about it ONCE MORE; then I'm throwing it away.

*So since I can post this, I can definetly post the blog about sex lol.

"I never truly lose; I just gain something I never thought I would." -em;