Monday, August 10, 2009

What's Behind Closed Doors.

Intimate ideas, Concealed emotions
An abudance of Secrets, a Pacific Ocean.
Uncontrolled feelings, unsolved puzzles
Battling hearts, and with each rebuttal:

Heightened affection, Nocturnal dreams
To win one's heart, Comes devious schemes.
Forseen ideas, Extravagant visions
My heart's singing a tune, but will she listen?

Sensual passion, Wonderous thoughts
One wrong move, will this all fall apart?
Locked or not, I have found the door
I think it has opened, yet I am scared to explore...


* This poem was made in 9th grade, during a time of infatuation for Kira. It has since become my favorite poem, that I have ever transcribed. It's amazing, to me, to observe how much I have changed over the years, with regards to writing, and personality. This poem would have been different had it been made just a few hours ago - the punctation, the words, the capitalization. Yet, the overall poem would have been the same, with minor details. I'm not sure why I admire it so much, I actually don't think it is in my top 10 best works of literature ever. Maybe, because it contains so many elements that were, and still are, true to my situation and being. "Intimate ideas, Concealed emotions" ---I had so many thoughts about Kira, but just did not tell her. I always did that, until maybe a few months ago. "One wrong move, will this all fall apart?" ---I can be very, very pessimistic. I realized that I was this way, even in 9th grade. And finally, there's "I think it has opened, yet I am scared to explore..." ---My shy nature has haunted me for so long. I think it ended with my relationship with Mone, or maybe even later than that. I also miss many opportunities, like with Rachel for example.

You know, maybe you have learned something:
That you can acquire much about me from my writing that you may have originally thought.
Understand writing's significance me now?



-em;

7 comments:

Pap ! said...

your writing has a come a loooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnggggggggg wayyy--emphasis on the long. when i read this i was like what kind of crap-me-kinda-poem is this? this is very similar to some of the 'poems'--though i wouldn't call them that, lol- that i've written. & the first line is also one of the reasons you don't have a girlfriend lol. & i wouldn't call your nature 'shy', because just NO lol, i don't think it's because you're shy. there's a better word for it, smthg like fearful or reluctant smthgg--haha, those are synonyms of shy; i suck lol.

Ghana said...

Yo. Pacific Ocean

... said...

Ummm...lol I forgot what i was going to say.

Saika Bince said...

Haha iUnderstand that feeling .

iFind the best books to read are the notebooks that hold my youth's growth. That poem was beautifully written though . When you're published - this blog entry should provide as an intro to your book :)

eh said...

Justin is funny lmao,

bt im glad you decided to put this poem on here, such a blast from the past lol. it reminds me of the days when i used to wish you would write a poem about me lol.

your writeing has come a loong way.
im proud of you =]

Chicago Bound . said...

Mone's So Cute.

"...when i used to wish you would write a poem about me lol."
-lol i used to almost wish that til i realized how much you actually hate me.
try to make "Chicago Bound._" as like a sympathy present---smh.
MilesMilesMiles.

~Pink Fresh~ said...

Wow @ these comments [ibcluding mine] lmfao.