Inspiration.

you know,
ialways thought that ineeded a spark...
...or some wonderous change to make my life interesting.

this was because,
iwas never where I wished to be.
iwas never with whom I wanted.
iwas never the person I strived to be.

but,,,
irealized;
-that ineed not substantial change.
-ineed not to strive to be anything.
-it's pointless for me to go out of my way for any girl.

...iam my own Inspiration;the sole catalyst to my happiness.
my troubles,
& social diseases, [girl crazy,trust issues,etc.]
& redundant phases,
have all been a manifestation of my ignorance.
right where iam,,is where ineed to be.

if someone comes into my life,
& touches my soul with an angelic prescence that
stimulates my joy;than it is because I allowed them to do so.
just as,
if sometimes pounces their antagonistic words and
actions onto me,
which throws my mind into a feeble and
inaquedate state,
it's because I allowed them to do so.

---you see;
I need not any bestfriend,
family member,
or girl to make me feel special;
and Great.

...because when ilook deep within,
even on the outskirts of my heavy emotions for others,
ifind an individual capable of living jubliantly;
if he simply acts on his own will,and mind.

my mind roams; and that has been my downfall.
iloveyouall; and my mind has cursed me for it.
---yet, it has blessed me;iunderstand that love
doesNOT have to mean pain 200% of the time.
iunderstand that;in this world, you truly are always alone...
unless you can open up and be true to others,which
first requires you to be true and open up to yourself.

---today; imet a girl named Saika.
iwill keep this concise, for ihave a robust feeling that she will
once again make her way in my blog.
despite that; she, unknowingly of course, changed the nature of this blog._
she showed me how MAGNIFICENT a conversation could be;ihaven't
typed that much to anyone in quite some time.
she showed me that staying true to yourself will come with it's own rewards
& gratifications.

<----ineeded those assurances; for jst earlier this day itold a friend of mine
how my good intentions have led me no where,& that maybe ishould alter them.


...this is by no means an insult to anyone.
this is by no means a removal of anyone from my life.
this is by no means another blog exemplifying my 'Girl-Crazy' syndrome.lol
this is by no means a celebration of pompousness and isolation.
this by no means anything with a negative connotation.

this is,
by all means,
HOW IT SHOULD BE---a glorification of who I am.


Hello,
...my name is Miles,
and my inspiration to life,
is Miles.
---what's yours?




-em;