Randomness 105.

School is waiting just around the bend; how cool. It won't be long until I'm once again trotting those Randallstown hallways with drama, laughs, and girls. Lol. I can't wait until this summer is over, just so that I can write my "Wrap-Up" of the summer. (In case you don't know, I started a tradition of making a rap that reviews the summer, school year, and the year in general.) I have plenty to discuss this summer, from personal changes to changes in others. I might change the format of my Wrap-Up this time around though, possibly making adding a more poetic influence, instead of just simply stating what has happened.

I have recently acquired a fondess of Miley Cyrus, well, two of her songs. Party in the USA just makes me feel wonderful; it might have the same effect Lollipop & Stuntin (feat. Drake) by Lil' Wayne [who is my number one "hype-man"] has on me. And then there's the song called The Climb which is an absolutely deep and invigorating song. I won't tell you about it or it's lyrics, just listen. People's reactions have been quite interesting, yet nothing I wouldn't expect.

I just realized that invigorating is one of my favorite words; I use it often.

Janelle had become a really good friend. I truly didn't expect it, if I can be honest. She just always seems to be happy, and that in turn keeps me happy. Even though she still has doubts about how much I care about what she has to say, and her in general, I see us going great places. Although, I am a bit skeptical about opening up completely to her. That is probably because I am once again straying away from my want to keep things to myself. She is apparently very emotional, which I believe is both a curse and gift-she can express how she feels, but may become stressed over something which is highly insignificant. Anyways, you're great kid, and I look forward to us being cool in our final hours of high school.

Saika is truly something special; her place in my life is even more of a shock than that of Janelle's. She called me the other day, and I expected utter Awkwardness-I got the exact opposite. Despite a few uncomfortable moments of silence, the conversation was both consistent and interesting, things which I rarely get from people. The nickname StarBoy that you gave me is really one of my favorites. I realized the other day that her Ego is quite large. Lol. I mean, it isn't arrogant or extreme to the point where she becomes unattractive, but is definetlty noticeable. Your voice definetly does not match your face, Lol. Thank you. <-- For what, I don't think I need to say.


Sua ! She has to be the most interesting person I know. And I'm not just saying that because she is my favorite person. She's always mad at me, it seems-but then she'll say something which completely negates any "bad" things she said to me. I find her recent want to talk to me on the phone quite weird, but very refreshing I guess; I like[scratch that] LOVE her random, sporadic side. She just asked me why I am so nice to her all the time, and my answer: "I try not to be so much, honestly-I just don't want to lose what little I have of you." I believe, that have discovered a fear of mine: losing the things which are most dear to me. It seems, as if it would have long been a fear, but I never thought I'd actually lose anything that Matters. Anyways, this is too nice......when I tried being "honest" and "said what was on my mind" to Sua, she liked momentarily FLIPPED. I didn't get offended, for she was just speaking out of anger. I'm serious about what I said though; things like simply not telling me why you're mad at me does make me lean toward the "We wouldn't work as a couple." side. Anyways, as you know, you come before all, so who cares about the little stuff.


Wow, wasn't that long. I guess Love gets my mind churning; I mean, it is was I write about most of the time. This fact bothers me, and so, I am trying to not write about love so much. It isn't hard for me to write about other topics, love just catalyzes my Inspiration more than others. As you hopefully saw, my last blog was a poem about me, a once corrupt murderer, killing a senseless murderer.

Going to my great-grandmother's cookout the other day made me realize how much I miss being close to my "2nd" cousins. Like, when I was younger, they were more like siblings-we took vacations together and I was always over. They seem so distant now; I guess that comes with age and distance.

My style for next year will be way more daring and sporadic, yet at the same time, it will be more reserved and cool. I just want to reflect who I am...and I definetly have all four of the aforementioned elements.

When Rachel told me the other day that her boyfriend rose to the occasion and basically "took advantage" I became slightly upset. Not only did it seem like she was throwing it in my face that I did NOT rise to the occasion, it also reminded me of how I have a tendency to miss opportunities and mess things up-but not this year !

I feel as though I "dumbed down" this blog for the sake of others. It's good to consider the feelings of others, but not so good to do something that isn't you. I guess, it's fine, since I did not dilute this sea of words completely.

I think I really took what my english teacher said to heart. She said, "It is best to try and not repeat the same words over and over again in your writing." And since I often convey the same ideas, it becomes a tedious tasks to prevent repetition of my words; I hope that helped someone.
I am supposed to be going shopping with the old "crew" from elementary and middle school. I really do miss those guys; they were also like siblings to me in my earlier years. I hope, that all goes well and that I can actually go; my anticipation is too great for me to miss this.

In a nutshell, I'm transcending...learning from mistakes and those who matter. It feels good, actually, to be able to relax and just contemplate things. Maybe that is another reason why I adore blogging so much [not to mention that I like typing.]

*** They are some really Jealous girls in my life. Not a big problem, but just know that you can't hide your jealousy well. Lol. ***

...possible next blogs: he gets the girl ?, maybe you should just leave me alone, we don't care,etc.

This is fun, but I have to be back in the house before the streetlights come on. Let's go to the playground and play there tomorrow !


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