As I walk into my AP Biology, I look to the right to see if Sua is there. I always look for her first, and she if she smiles or simply turns back around when I enter. Ha, she just smiled - I LOVE her smile. Everytime I see it, my favorite musical quote ever, from Hero Heroine, comes to mind. Last night, she wiled me over texts. It was over something dumb, like, I think I replied with "yeah." - I only did it to show her how much her "Oh okay,," replies suck as well. I do that to everyone now; maybe they'll catch the hint? Nope, that's dead lol.
It's so funny to see how people react when they see you the next day: most people act like it, whatever occurred last night or yesterday that was negative, never happened. Tashauna does that. I really don't have any examples of her doing that, as in, none come to mind, but I know she does. Tashauna's like, weird to me - I really want to know what she thinks about me, and what we Wants from me...whatever it is, I'll probably keep disappointing her, not like she doesn't disappoint me too. Oh well. I wonder what she has on today? I can't wait 'til Calc, then I can see if the outfit is sexy or not, lol. Her outfits usually show off her figure, so I'm sure I'll walk in there, give her a hug, and have SEX! (lol) Written all over the smile that I'll shed.
And Sabrina! It's so fun flirting with her - it isn't too serious, although everyone else thinks so. Ugh, I look around and she isn't here yet. Always late, or just not here lol, smh. She really needs to break up with Chad. I usually react to people like it (whatever the event was last night/yesterday) happened.
So since I'm feeling friendly today, I'll walk in front of Dyer's desk to my seat (instead of behind it - which is the way I go when I want to avoid confrontation, or looks.) As I get closer to Sua, I notice that she's talking to Shakila. Can Shakila really like Sua? That's gay, like really lol. She'll never book her. We would have been cool, Shakila and I, but she doesn't speak to me unless I speak to her, so never going to happen.
Anyways, I know Sua has seen me by now, why hasn't she spoken? I have only been standing here for like 3 seconds, but that's not the point... "Hey Sua." "Oh, hey Miles." No hug, but I'll be ok. I just really think when you don't give someone a hug, who you usually do, that you aren't really paying them any mind. I mean, I could have opened my arms to her, I ALWAYS do, but why should I? Wonder if she sees anything wrong with me not opening my arms; probably thinks I'm upset or something.
As I ask Dawn to push in her chair, I realize that we rarely say Hi to one another. I mean, we're cool, but they communication just died after last year. I was shocked when I found out she was gay, I was REALLY late on the news too lls. Aryn's so beastmode in track; so very dedicated. I wish I could be that dedicated to track...I mean, I can, but I don't want to really lol. Running is fun, but not in that sense. Ha, I remember when my team won a bronze medal for the 4x4 indoor season. Had my time been better, basically if I were more dedicated, we could have gotten silver.
I sit down, and glance at the drillboard. I never immediately start my drill, it isn't that important to me, and Dyer gives us forever to do it. I look right across from me, and I see Kayla. Wow, she looks good today. Ugh, I say that too much. But she really does - her outfits really bring out her beauty. Why does she smoke though? Like, seriously. Doesn't matter, cause she's just another girl to me now. She really did say, "Miles isn't ugly or anything, but he has a Bad personality...he's rude." Like, what the fuck Kayla - all of the things I've done for you? She's one of the Prime examples of people who take things too seriously. I'm apparently rude because I say 'mean' things to her, which in turn means I have a bad personality? Ligthen up, kid...I'm never seriously mean.
People are annoyed by my 'mean' comments, but they are jokes - maybe I should stop them; EJ said I'm always bring people down...I'm just trying to keep life humorous. Oh, let me get up and go and dap up EJ. Why is he talking to Phisayo so much? And does she like, go with Phumi or...? Anyways, EJ's cool with hella random people, like Brittany. Wow, this guy really has a girlfriend...but we still have the same Ex, lls. Ugh, Mone. She's sometimes the sweetest, but is wayyyy too sensitive. Let me start the drill...wow, do I really have to write 2 paragraphs on this crap? ....ok, that's one paragraph, Dyer will be iight.
Oh, here comes Nicole and Pap. "Yeah I'm ouut that Brooklyn" They always come in here righht before the bell...for some reason, that really annoys me. Like, why don't you just come to class? I should go and give Pap a hug, but that's a long walk - I'll give her plenty throughout the day anyways. If I made like, a move at her, how would she Really react? I wonder if deep within our minds, if we have a thing for one another. Openly and consciously, neither of us do. But look how Tashauna and I turned out...I wouldn't even thought TWICE of liking her in 9th OR 10th grade lol. Oh hell no! And the same goes for her with me. But, yeah.
Wow, Ms. Dyer just walked in - she's really big. Wish she were a better teacher, smh. Nicole really cannot stand her, but Nicole is mean so who cares, lol. I mean, she's really cool, and her outspoken ways are inspirational, but her bitch comes out more than it should. Oh well, she doesn't wile me so I'm good. =) I'ma book the hell out of Nicole. She's probably GREAT at sex, like, I can tell by the way she talks about it. Let me add a few sentences to the drill, in case Dyer gets mad (because the class is kinda loud) and decides to collect it. There! I'm finished, now to see who looks cute today.
As I looked slightly to the right, I think about how Kira has really stepped up her game as far as clothing goes. And she is much cuter than she was last year! We don't speak much anymore either - that died after 9th grade, when I missed YET ANOTHER opportunity! Ugh. I missed a lot of opportunites, like Rachel for example. Well, every possible 'opportunity' after 9th grade wasn't really an opportunity, because those girls would have just been added to my list lol. Sua stops me from doing so much. Not in bad way...I think? I would be going with someone right now, had we been JUST friends. I wonder when I would have broken up with Mone'? Kira's really yellow as shhhh! Lol. "I can be your sunshine" - who is the girl that sings that song with Lil' Flip? Hmph. I could have been her boyfriend...how would my life been different? Would she still be in love with Mari? I wonder how their sex is, because I KNOW they've had it.
Ha, Mari. She's crazy cool. Sometimes, her obsession with the norm of teenages bothers me. And she praises Polo, which also bothers me. "Mari, are you really going to get that silver tooth?" "Yes Yo, it's going to be sexy, watch!" Haha, she's something else. TJ always looks really Stupid, fuckin' diving instructor lol. Micheal is funny stupid. I love calling Chris Micheal - it's become a habit now. Well what do you know, he just said something dumb.
Hey, my hand is up Dyer! Smh, she doesn't like me I think. I remember 9th grade in COPS, after like 1st quarter she would say, "Miles, put your hand down" because I'd always raise it, knowing almost Everything. David was in that class. Ha, second person I met. I wonder if she still doesn't like me? Oh boy, Pap and Aja are having one of their "screw Ms. Dyer, we're going to keep talking" momets. Aja's so cool. She sucks too though, emotional little yeah.
These slideshows are the things from which I learn the most information, in this class. Dyer should make the entire class; discussion and slideshows, or at least integrate them more often. We really are going through a whole class period with this. I need to fully understand those complex punnet squares and probability - I'm trying to get an A this quarter! Speaking of grades, I have my report being: A's, one B, and a C. Hopefully, Moses whips me up a B, making it a's and two B's. I'ma try to stop saying "All A's and one B", because as Someone told me last year, it isn't really ALL a's if you got a B. So, i'ma just say A's, lls.
Sua always takes Forever writing notes, like wow Sua. She has small fingers...is that why her handwriting looks that way? And ha, Sabrina's such a diva; fixing her hair again...I bet she's about to put on lipgloss...wait for it...wait...wait...there it goes! Hahaha; does she have other colors of lipgloss? I never dated a girl who consistently wears a purse...or even talked to one I think? Maybe I need a girly-girl.
Oh wait, I don't think I have that in my notes...let me write it down really quickly. Nicole's saying something to me about how it's funny when Dyer doesn't know about what she's talking. "Hahaha, you can always tell by her face!" And I look at Dyer, and burst out in laughter. She's looking at me. Probably yearning to say, "What the fuck?" Ha! That would be the day she dies. Well, financially - definetly losing the job: I wouldn't even OD. Why is she still looking? I thought this dumb smirk I have on would make her turn away...ok she looked away, good.
Anyways, Stop writing Verbatim Sua! Forman used to say verbatim a lot. Haha, Forman. He's actually really cool - those girls just gave him a hard time. He does suck at answering questions though, lol. "I'm not. Geesh." is what Sua would say if I said, "Wanna take any longer with the notes Sua?" I could say something about her taking notes, but that would be pointless. She should come sit on my lap, haha. The day that happens...well, it has, but not what I'm thinking. Let me ball up this sheet of paper so that I can walk to the trash can - I do that a lot; can't STAND sitting down sometimes.
"Pretty Girls; ask them if them smoke...!" -That guy in Wale's song, who is he? Lol. Kira asked me that the other day. 'Pretty Girls' makes me think about HELLA heads. Ha, Autumn is so so so so cute. I wonder what Pap said in the book about her. Wait, THE BOOK! Pap is slippin'...over here she comes; watch this reply be whack as hell! So I'm flipping pages...I see like 12 sentences, smh. "she's so in love w/ you like physically & emotionally.....lol" ---hmm, that reply wasn't as bad as the other ones! Lol; but I know she tries. I expect too much, smh. She really can't draw that star though? I'll reply in this book later.
Wow, so I see hella chucks in that row - this is why I almost never wear mine. There goes the bell...time for announcements..yay. She always walks by me to turn on the television. I should touch her butt - she would either smile, or OD...it's too early for OD, so I'll just watch. Dyer is crazy about the pledge...of course Nicole isn't standing, for it says "under God" in the pledge. I love that she doesn't like religion, I don't either. =)
"I hear Jersusalem bells, ringing. Roman Cavarly Choirs, singing." Coldplay is so great! I need to download their other albums. Rams TV sucks. The radio crap is Really bad. Oh boy, my manz D Cal ! Hope he doesn't mess up...then again, yeah I do haha. That crap is so funny. Oh boy, what just happened? Ha! That was funny, this guy said, " *Pause*...again? " Lol. That face was P RI C E LE SS! Tashauna sexy ass said that she thinks they don't edit Edem's performance on purpose.
Jasmine's sick again, aww man. =/ She should have been here to see Edem fail. I think Edem thinks she is Easy, because he always touches on her. Or maybe, it's because she doesn't care? I don't know. And there's the bell. I miss walking with Sua to the next class. I always envision us holding hands the entire way to Calc. But she would find some distraction and pull away, aww man. I'll just walk with Ej..."AY Yo E! Come on, Yo."
EJ's such a loyal friend. Not necessarily a good one though, lol sike sike. He just, doesn't care enough to me it seems? But sometimes he does. He's like Sua! This walk to my locker gets longer everyday it seems, lol I sometimes think I've forgotten the combination. But when I remember that the ## is right before ## then I'm good. Ugh. Why is Shakila walking with Sua? That makes me think of some of the influences with which Sua hangs. Shakila's cool, I think, but like, the smokers and drinkers. I can't choose her friends for her, or say anything, but yeah - I'm just scared she's going to get into something. Those sweatpants are working for her today, lol.
This hallway always put Spongebob thoughts in my head: I should run down this hallway saying, "I'm readyy!" one day. And there goes Klawonn standing outside yelling...I'm going to post up against the wall, so he can push me inside...ouch! That hurt a little, lol. And I walk into Calc...
No explanations; that is what goes through my mind. things were left out, unintentionally. oh yeah; my new blog url: mileswashere.tumblr.com -- -em;
About ten minutes ago, I realized that having two blogs is without purpose. Me updating this blog and tumblr simultaneously just validates how we cannot let go of the past - myself especially. 
